Thursday, February 5, 2009

(If I Only Have) One More Day

If I have one more day to live, then I will tell you how much I love you. I will write you a note, a letter even, to make sure that you know it. I will kiss you as much as I can, in the morning even, something that I always forget to do lately. If I only have one more day to live, then I will go with you to the beach, despite that I can not expose myself too long under the sun because of my very low blood pressure that makes me easily faint. Hey, I only have one day to live, why would I care about getting faint? If I only have one more day to live, then I will hold you in my arms. I wish I could be more concern and less selfish, less stubborn. I wish that I could be more sensitive and feeling you in my heart. I wish that I could be more understand about you and be open myself to you. I will be happy to wake up next to you in the morning and having breakfast with you like old times.
If I only have one more day then I want to spend it with you. I wish I could stay at home more often rather than wandering around with my friends. I wish I could be more available for you, as you always do for me. I wish I could be less talking and more listening. I wish I could be a good friend for you and always be there whenever you need me. I wish I could be someone for you to share with, not just in happiness but especially in sadness.
If I only have one more day to live, then I will tell you how much I miss you, I will show you. I wish I could spend more days with you, just with you, doing all of those silly things that we usually do when we bored. I wish I could see more of your smiles because only God knows how I love seeing your eyes crinkling when you do it. I wish I could be more strong and never wining when I want something because I know for sure how you hate it. I wish I could be less childish and be more mature as you always remind me that I am a woman now and not a kid anymore. I wish I could be more responsible with my life, be less ignorant and less neglecting. I wish I could quit my shopping habit that you hate so much. I wish I could say enough to myself whenever I see shoes or bags. I wish I could be more satisfy with what I have got because I got all, I got you.
If I only have one more day to live, then I will empty my schedule only for you. I will watch with you all of those DVD’s that we haven’t have time to watch yet, even the films that I don’t like because all I care now is spending times with you. I wish I could be less bitchy and more nice to you. I wish I could stop my nagging habit that kills you many times. I wish I could be less bossy and more approachable for you. I wish I could be more honest to you especially when it comes to my time with my friends. I wish I would have time to say sorry for every lies that I have made in the past. I wish I would have time to say sorry for everything I have done that hurt you. I wish I could be more sensible and never force my things to you because it’s all about us now, not only me, myself, and I all the time.
If I only have one more day to live, then I will tell you who I won’t call. I will not call my doctor because it’s useless anyway, I will not call my lawyer because the last thing I would care about is my belonging. I can’t take it to wherever I go next anyway. I will not call that Scottish man that owe us money because honestly I don’t care about those money anymore. Not because of the amount, God that’s a hell a lot of money of course, but simply just because I don’t care. I will not call my boutique to find out about my outstanding this month. I will not call my stock’s broker about all of my shares and I definitely will not call my tax man. I will not call my garment, pfff…what for? I will not call my beautician, who needs a facial treatment on their last day anyway? If I only have one more day to live and I only have one phone call access, then I will only call you, Darling, the love of my life.
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