God Is Gay

That was the first thing that came out from a dear friend of mine’s mouth when he was hitting a rock bottom of his life. Everything in the whole world seemed to came against him, so yeah, he was kind of let down by life. At that time I was not paid attention as I thought he was joking. Until last month, when I had a situation which I won’t call a rock bottom, but yeah, made me down and I decided to ask God for help, my friend was like, “Yeah, go talk to your God if you think that’s the right thing to do, if you think there‘s any God out there. Me, I gave up on Him three months ago when He didn’t answer my pray. He’s gay,” Seriously guys, I really don’t know what to say at that point. I mean, to hear something like that from a dear friend was kind of sadden. I still remember when I was so upset because of my vet asked me to make a decision for my cat euthanasia regarded to his health issue, I came to him and he was the one who prayed for my cat and me. I won’t say that am a religious person, but I do believe in God. Of course, as a normal human being who has so many curiosities in life, I do have a doubt once in a while about this super power thing called ‘God.’ But as my parents and cleric forbid me since I was a kid, I always buried my doubt deep inside me and tried not to mention it as for the people in this country, it might be something taboo to be said.
But, after heard those magic words from my friend, that thing came back again into my mind. Who is God? Where is He when we need him? Why He was always came late just like those police squad in every Hollywood movie? Doesn’t He supposed to be the one who knew everything first? Even way before we did it? I remember when years before I mention to someone that he should thanks God for everything that he got in his life, and he was like, “Why should I? I worked my *ss to get all of these things, why should I thanks someone else and not myself?” At that time, I called him ungrateful human being, but now, as I open my mind, that was something that makes my sense right now. I mean, can you imagine if he didn’t work hard and just prayed to God all the time instead, do you think that he’s going to reach his success like he is now? I don’t think so. God sure has something to do with everything here as He is actually our creator, but I don’t think He is the one who in charge in this game called destiny. We, the human, are in charge on making our own destiny. God, for me, just an element to settle us down so that we, the human, won’t over estimate of ourselves. So we, the human, won’t think that we own this universe because as a human being, it was so easy for us to over valued ourselves once we achieve a certain point. So yeah, there comes an authorized super power that we don’t know and won’t know where He actually came from, what He looks like, and there is no doubt and questions allowed to made regarding His existence.
Therefore, the crucial question need to be answered for me is, “Is there really any God?” Am not an atheist but that question keep on coming into my mind over and over again. No, I still pray to my God whenever am down or need help, but, for some reason sometime I have a doubt, was that necessary? The praying thing, I mean. Because to be honest with you, as my friend I mentioned above said, even though he didn’t pray, sometime the result was the same with whenever he prayed, sometime even better. So, I second him when he had that doubt. But no, I won’t stop praying in the name of God. I was just questioning the essence of doing it if we won’t get anything from it. Someone said to me that if you pray, God will answer only the time is not always accordingly. Because God has His own time and we should follow. Then, my next question would be, what’s so special about that then? I mean, if we need help now, what we’re going to do with the help that we get, let say a week, after? Am sure by the time we get that, we’d probably figured something out anyway. So what’s the point? That makes my next question would be like, if He was barely help us in our time, if we have to follow his time, does that make Him gay? Or we, the human, were asking too much?
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Spread of western styles

Spread of western styles
western styles
Spread western styles
Spread of western styles
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Winter Kate by Nicole Richie

Winter Kate by Nicole Richie
Winter Kate Nicole Richie
Winter Kate by Nicole Richie
Winter Kate Nicole
Winter Kate

Two Is Better Than One (Welcoming Cheech And Chong)

Many things happened in my life that am grateful for, and one of those is when one morning at the beginning of this year I found these two kittens right in front of my garage. Looked like someone dumped them there to starved. I was still mourning of the lost of my Min-Pin the month before and one of the kittens has a broken tail, just like Macallan, my late dog. Over a pity of those little things, I fed them with milk. After finished drank all of the milk I gave them, they were like all over me and followed me home. So there you go, it’ not like I adopted them at that point, but more like they picked me as their new mom. The thing is, am more like a dog person rather than cats. But how could someone say ‘No’ to those blue eyes who looked at you with their innocent faces? Well, I couldn’t.
Anyway, since that moment, my life changed completely. I knew from the beginning that these two little buggars are different than Adam. But first, let me tell you a funny story about their name. I thought they were he and she as I predicted it from their size, so I named them Hansel and Gretel. For some reason, those names sound great in my ears. But when last month I had my vet came to the house to gave them their first vaccination, she told me that my kittens were actually both males. So yeah, Hansel and Gretel suddenly didn’t sound that great anymore and I had to came up with new names. Then I remember that a friend who has two rottweilers named his dogs Cheech and Chong at the beginning but then change the names as he gave up one of his dogs to someone else. Yeah, of course he had to change the name because just like Hansel and Gretel, the names Cheech and Chong have to come together. Knowing that he did that already and my man was also love those names then I named my kittens with those names at the end. Gosh, hope he didn’t find out about this and thought that am a copycat. But dude, I really seriously truly love the names!
Back to my thought above, I have a feeling that these two little things were different with my nice and lovely Adam. Maybe because of they both are males, so they were kind of hyperactive compared to their sister. And Cheech, oh my…he’s a whiner alright. I supposed he was younger than his twin. Chong was more like a leader in between them, and more independent as an individual. He was actually smaller than Cheech but he was a trouble maker and doesn’t really like being picked up and or cuddled. Chong is actually a loner while Cheech is a spoil brat. Then a few weeks ago, I came home to found Chong with a big lump on his back. Of course, as a concern mother, I was worried. But, there he was, jump up all over the place didn’t seem to be bother at all. After a week, finally his lump healed and I felt so relieved with his condition, even though if it didn’t effected him at all but for me it was still broke my heart seeing him with those ugly lump on his back that made him looked like a camel. And my thought at that point was he must had some kind of traumatic experience with whatever happened to him that gave him that lump. But, I was wrong. Totally wrong. A few days ago I came home from work and found him limping with this big swollen leg! What a naughty little buggar! God knows what got in to him now. I was given up worrying him at this level, no point whatsoever. He is going to do whatever he wants to do anyway, no one could stop him. He even started climbing the 2 meters walls surrounding my house already and went to the next door neighbors. One year Adam with me and three years with Frosty, they were always play on the roof but never broke anything. But just last week these two little things went up to the roof followed Adam, and tear up my mosquito’s net alright. Not to mention my speakers cover that they scratched to part, and the vase that they used for play hide and seek, and many more.
No, don’t get me wrong, am not complaining about my kittens here. Because even though they did what they have done, I don’t even have any hatred toward them at all. In fact, they were actually my heroes. Because of them I learned how to be more patient in life. How to care for others as I was never did before. Because of that I love them so much, even though they are cats and not dogs as I was always wanted.
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When A Man Loves A Woman

Nope, this is not about Michael Bolton's song, even though the title is the same, but this is about my confusion on how do you supposed to express your love to your partner in a proper way. In one of Entourage TV series episode, Eric's girlfriend who felt threatening knowing the fact that he was still keep in touch with his ex-girlfriend, asking his permission to give her access to read his e-mails. When Eric told the boys, everyone was like, "No way!" As for me too, that was exactly my reaction. I mean, how insecure are you to low yourself doing such a noisy thing like that? Don't you trust the man you with? Here is the thing, my partner gave me a full access to his e-mail, he even told me whenever he change his password. But unless he asked me to, I was never check on them. Even when he received e-mails from his female friends, he told me and asked me to read them. I know his intention was to show me that he has nothing to hide from me, but I was never interested to read them. Why? First of all because I trust him, but also because of I was never feel any threatening from anything or anyone. I mean, for me, it's not about whether you give each other access to your personal things, but it's more like your commitment to each other. How do you expect your partner to trust you if you have a difficulty trusting them?
Back to the Entourage episode, this thing was triggered by one morning when Eric received a phone call from someone and rushed to shower because he said he has to go for a meeting. While he was in the shower, the noisy girlfriend checked on his mobile and found out that he was talking to someone with a funny name before jumped up of the bed. And she also found out that he was still keep in touch with his ex-girlfriend as she found her texts in his mobile. This things made her go ballistic. But I was like, that was the prize you got for being such a noisy beyotch! Duh!
Now, I was wondering, when a man loves a woman and likewise, does that mean that you should open up all of your personal things to each other? Or, let say it this way, does your partner entitled to access your personal stuffs and there is nothing you can say about that? Don't get me wrong, I don't want to intimidate anyone here by saying that if you are noisy that means you are not cool. Hey, who am I to have any rights judging others coolness? I was just express my confusion. I mean, for me, when you love someone then you should set them free. I think we should rely on each other's commitment in a relationship. Maybe am too naïve or maybe am stupid. But I don't get jealous like normal people, I don't know why, some said that I have an empty hole inside me. Well, actually I do have a jealousy feeling in me but it won't make me go crazy or anything. Besides, if my partner told me about all of the e-mails he received, then why would I waste my time reading them? I have so many interesting things to do in my spare times! Hah!
In the episode of Entourage I was talking earlier, Eric broke up with his girlfriend because of that. If you guys watch the show, then you would know that Eric is the most honest and decent guy in between all of them, so actually the girl has nothing to worry about, in fact, he admit to the boys that he actually wanted this thing to work. But, he decided to ended up his relationship because of her insecurity thing that drive him crazy. And being with someone who has lack of confidence like her really is something uncomfortable. Now back to my point, if your partner give you a full access to their personal stuffs, does that mean that they love you? And if they refuse to do it, does that mean that they don't really love you? Does love define by something so lame like that?
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Can A Man And A Woman Be Friends?

This is hilarious, if you are a guy and already has a girlfriend, can you still be friend with a girl who has a boyfriend too? Yeah, can two non single people with the opposite gender be friends, just friends? Here is the thing, I have more male friends compare to females. And am not single so do most of my friends. So, of course, I found it kind of funny when one of my male friend got into a big problem with his girlfriend because of me. I mean, how did it happen? I can be anything but a threat to anyone. Besides, we barely see each other, but yeah of course..we're friends. At least that what I thought these all time. Maybe am naive or maybe am an ignorant beyotch. But for me, friend is a friend. But then again, I totally understand that different people has different way of thinking. I don't like when people try to make me change the way am thinking as much as I won't try to make others change theirs. So yeah, maybe the best thing is to keep a distance from him so I won't be labeled as a trouble maker by anyone, because am an Aquarian and one of an Aquarian characteristics was a peacemaker..so, world peace? Hah!

Honestly, I feel like am losing something here. Not that we're see each other very often, but for some reasons, I feel like he's a dear friend. So, I will be missing him, for sure. But hey, it's not like the end of the world. Everything is going to be alright. The main thing is am not going to ruined anyone's relationship here. In fact, that the last thing that came to my mind. But, even though I tried so hard to fix everything up, am the outsider here so it's going to be hard for me to convince everyone that I don't mean to do any harm. But I think all of the people that I care, knew. Hey, am not the baddie here! Am more like the mischievous one who could care less about others, someone once ask me was that one of the parts of me being a princess? Hum, could be. But that was me and I love me being me, so I don't think am going to do anything about it. Oh yeah, did I ever mention that am a very stubborn and selfish girl too? So becoming my friends wasn't easy therefore I have only short list of friends. And to lose one of those few was kind of sadden me.
Anyway, back to my question above, can non single people with the opposite gender be friends? Despite of anything? Well, at this point, I came to a conclusion that some of them can and some can't. It depends on how do you deal with every aspect in your life. Maybe am a freak, or maybe my self confidence is way over the top. But yeah, if my man has any female friend, I was never consider them as a threat no matter what. Because I trust myself that big, my self confidence won't let me feel that way. Thanks God for that, because I know how miserable it would be if it happened to me and I have no self confidence to deal with it.
So, at last, I just want to convince everyone once again that am cool and never was a threat for anyone. But I will quit my friendship if it becomes a threat to someone. Sad though, but for everyone's convenience, it must be done. So, this blog is actually a goodbye message to someone who used to be close but now gone, to a very dear friend of mine. Yeah, I will always consider him as a friend, though. Because he was, is, and will always be my friend. For me, friendship doesn't end just because of one of you made a stupid mistake. Because for me, friendship doesn't recognize gender nor status. Because for me, friendship is way beyond those stuffs. And please forgive my ignorant habit, but I never been in the situation of loving someone that deep so I was never afraid of losing anyone in my life. Yeah, am a very selfish girl who never love anyone more than I love myself. So maybe it was my fault for being such a beyotch by ignoring the girlfriend's feeling. Maybe it was just me and my weird way of thinking..I don't know..
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Spring Idea

Yeah, I’ve found This Spring's Must-Have Accessories from GQ Picks. They showing so many, but some option so impress me much… :)) Here We Go !!

1. The Straw Fedora
Dressing seasonally applies to your headwear, too. That means going with a straw—not felt—fedora come spring and summer. The coolest version right now is known as "stingy," in reference to its super-narrow brim. I love this hat from H&M $7.95 but I found the looks a like at Tunjungan Plaza 1 near the Pizza Hut, about IDR 200.000.

2. Plastic Aviators
Wire-framed aviators have been a stone-cold classic for decades—now they've gotten a timely update. This new riff co-opts the chunky plastic cool of Wayfarers and applies it to the timeless fighter pilot's silhouette. My option for Blinde Eyewear but its damn $285.

3. New-Wave Boat Shoes
Nothing wrong with traditional brown boat shoes, but with everyone from Sperry to Gucci doing creative new riffs, why not go for something more up to date than the ones JFK sported? Try a streamlined new silhouette or a splashy color instead. I like Sperry Top-Sider $88. Trying to found the fake one :p

4. Brightly Colored Faces
Even if all the dudes at your office have thrown a chunk of cash at an impressive watch, they probably don't have one quite like this. A red, blue, or green face will add a shot of badass-itude to your otherwise conservative business look. I like this Paul Smith $715

5. A Brighter Striped Tie
It's time to take the striped tie—the preppy staple that never goes out of style—to another dimension by adding a couple of doses of bold color. Yes, you can wear these ties at work, where they'll make even a well-worn suit look vibrant and new. AND how much I Love LANVIN $165.

DAMN !! for looking ass-good-fucking-ass-cool-guy, it need $1,260 ... I've to find sponsors NOW !! :)