God Is Gay

That was the first thing that came out from a dear friend of mine’s mouth when he was hitting a rock bottom of his life. Everything in the whole world seemed to came against him, so yeah, he was kind of let down by life. At that time I was not paid attention as I thought he was joking. Until last month, when I had a situation which I won’t call a rock bottom, but yeah, made me down and I decided to ask God for help, my friend was like, “Yeah, go talk to your God if you think that’s the right thing to do, if you think there‘s any God out there. Me, I gave up on Him three months ago when He didn’t answer my pray. He’s gay,” Seriously guys, I really don’t know what to say at that point. I mean, to hear something like that from a dear friend was kind of sadden. I still remember when I was so upset because of my vet asked me to make a decision for my cat euthanasia regarded to his health issue, I came to him and he was the one who prayed for my cat and me. I won’t say that am a religious person, but I do believe in God. Of course, as a normal human being who has so many curiosities in life, I do have a doubt once in a while about this super power thing called ‘God.’ But as my parents and cleric forbid me since I was a kid, I always buried my doubt deep inside me and tried not to mention it as for the people in this country, it might be something taboo to be said.
But, after heard those magic words from my friend, that thing came back again into my mind. Who is God? Where is He when we need him? Why He was always came late just like those police squad in every Hollywood movie? Doesn’t He supposed to be the one who knew everything first? Even way before we did it? I remember when years before I mention to someone that he should thanks God for everything that he got in his life, and he was like, “Why should I? I worked my *ss to get all of these things, why should I thanks someone else and not myself?” At that time, I called him ungrateful human being, but now, as I open my mind, that was something that makes my sense right now. I mean, can you imagine if he didn’t work hard and just prayed to God all the time instead, do you think that he’s going to reach his success like he is now? I don’t think so. God sure has something to do with everything here as He is actually our creator, but I don’t think He is the one who in charge in this game called destiny. We, the human, are in charge on making our own destiny. God, for me, just an element to settle us down so that we, the human, won’t over estimate of ourselves. So we, the human, won’t think that we own this universe because as a human being, it was so easy for us to over valued ourselves once we achieve a certain point. So yeah, there comes an authorized super power that we don’t know and won’t know where He actually came from, what He looks like, and there is no doubt and questions allowed to made regarding His existence.
Therefore, the crucial question need to be answered for me is, “Is there really any God?” Am not an atheist but that question keep on coming into my mind over and over again. No, I still pray to my God whenever am down or need help, but, for some reason sometime I have a doubt, was that necessary? The praying thing, I mean. Because to be honest with you, as my friend I mentioned above said, even though he didn’t pray, sometime the result was the same with whenever he prayed, sometime even better. So, I second him when he had that doubt. But no, I won’t stop praying in the name of God. I was just questioning the essence of doing it if we won’t get anything from it. Someone said to me that if you pray, God will answer only the time is not always accordingly. Because God has His own time and we should follow. Then, my next question would be, what’s so special about that then? I mean, if we need help now, what we’re going to do with the help that we get, let say a week, after? Am sure by the time we get that, we’d probably figured something out anyway. So what’s the point? That makes my next question would be like, if He was barely help us in our time, if we have to follow his time, does that make Him gay? Or we, the human, were asking too much?
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